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March 16th 2017 | 17.2&17.3 Recap

Here we go, another week (or two) have gone by. More workouts, more school, and not enough coffee to keep me awake for it all. School has been fine, math is math. Incase anyone cares, which I’m sure you don’t but I’m telling you anyways, I’m in a lower level math class. I’m in a college skills math and all I have to say is THANK THE LORD. There was so much information that I did not retain from high school, it’s pretty embarrassing. I’m passing my class because thankfully it’s all coming back and I’m picking up on everything. But, damn, adding fractions, positive and negative numbers? None of that suck with me, but also I barely went to class so, haha, that’s also on me. Let’s say high school was not my cup of tea and I did not want to be there more than half of the time. College has been so much more enjoyable, especially at my age I appreciate it that much more. Just gotta get it done with.

Now, onto my FAVORITE thing to talk about here, CrossFit. Ain’t no shame in my game MF’s. I have completed 17.2 and 17.3 and now I get to sit anxiously waiting for 17.4, which is insane to think we are onto our fourth week of The Open. Every week gets harder, for me, mentally and emotionally. I’ve stopped comparing myself to everyone, which has helped me exponentially. That is a huge mountain to overcome for me to shut that part of my brain off. Instead, I’m looking at it in a much more positive light. I look once a week to see where I rank in the Northern California region and in the world and I’m right about in the middle, which to me is fucking awesome. I’m half as good as other people who are ridiculously strong and been doing this for much longer, I’ll take it and run with it. SEEE YAAA HATEEERRSSS ( just kidding, I don’t think I have “haters” just a lot of people who don’t give a shit)

17.2 was really fun for me, though I did it scaled. It included lunges, which I love. We used the dumbbells for the second week in a row and I wasn’t necessarily mad about it either. Dumbbells were something I used a lot at the beginning of my fitness journey so it’s nice to be using them again. We used them for power cleans and had to hold them on our shoulders for the walking lunges. The third movement for the workout was toe to bars and muscle ups. I am almost there with my toes to bars, but nowhere near a muscle up. So for 17.2 I did the scaled version which was knees to chest and a pull-up. I did a kipping swing pull-up and actually got a few, 24 to be exact but who’s counting? :). Each week I keep proving to myself that I CAN do these things and to not be afraid. I tore the crap out of my right hand though. Aurora’s dad was my right hand man for the workout. He was judging me and I am so glad he chose to be my judge and I his. He knows me a lot better than most people and he helped keep me going during those pull-ups. At one point I felt my hand getting sticky, like I would close it in a fist and then I would relax my hand it just stuck a little. Yeah, well I had two HUGE tears on my hand and both had opened up and the skin was just chilling, it’s healed now mostly and it looks pretty cool. I don’t even know how my left hand left the battle unscathed. So, anyways, he saw me look down and he knew immediately that I would want to mess with them and he was just like, no. He told me not to worry about it and to keep going. And if it was anyone else, I probably would have messed with them and then jumped back up on the bar. I hate scabs and blisters and want them gone ASAP. Which, I know you are not supposed to mess with them, but I do (gross, I know).

17.2 | 12 Minute AMRAP Rx’d 35 pounds | Scaled 20 pounds

  • 2 rounds
    • 50-ft Weighted Walking Lunges
    • 16 Toes to Bars | Knees to chest
    • 8 Power Cleans
  • 2 rounds
    • 50-ft Weighted Walking Lunges
    • 16 Muscle Ups | Pull-ups
    • 8 Power Cleans


17.3 was a different story. It ended up being a snatch ladder with pull ups in between. I did scaled again, so I couldn’t even tell you the rx’d women’s or the men’s but it was a crazy amount of weight, in my opinion. Just to break it down really quick, a ladder is basically when the weight increases for each set, like you are going up a ladder. The first set was 6 pull-ups and 6 snatches at the first weight, for three rounds. The next set of the ladder was 7 pull-ups and 5 snatches at the next weight for three rounds. And so on and so forth. The scaled weight started at 35 pounds and the next weight was 55 pounds, which is pretty much all I got to. I was not expecting to do well, but I was hoping to do a little bit more. But, it is what is. Well, not really because I thought it would be a really good idea to try it again. Mind you the first time I got a decent amount of reps, which I should have just accepted. But I am me and I’m stubborn and in my mind I thought I could do a little better. More so because I was one second away from hitting my last rep to get to the next round of the ladder. So annoying. I gave myself two days to rest, two days. Looking back, I didn’t even think of that. So dumb, 17.1 wrecked me and I needed almost a week to recover, why I thought two days was chill is so silly. Stubborn AF. I got through less reps the second time around, I believe, I think that’s what I heard Spenser tell me. The only plus side to re-doing my workout was that my mom got to watch me. So cute, I felt like garbage about how I did and she just gives me a hug and says “Oh my god, you did so good. I’m so proud of you.” Love little Diane.

17.3 | Ascending AMRAP

Rx’d weight: 65lbs, 95lbs, 135lbs, 155lbs, 175lbs, 185 lbs

Scaled weight: 35lbs, 55lbs, 65lbs, 75lbs, 95lbs, 105lbs

  • 8 Minutes to complete
    • 3 Rounds
      • 6 Pull Ups
      • 6 Squat Snatches @ First Weight
    • 3 Rounds
      • 7 Pull Ups
      • 5 Squat Snatches @ Second Weight

If you complete before the 8 minutes, you get 4 minutes added to your time, then you must complete..

  • 3 Rounds
    • 8 Pull Ups
    • 4 Squat Snatches @ Third Weight

If you complete that then you add another four minutes and do the fourth round and then if you finish that you get another four minutes and do the fifth round and then another four minutes and the last round.

Today, we’ll find out what 17.4 is. Everyone seems to think we are getting close to thrusters with dumbbells and handstand push-ups so we worked on that yesterday. We did two separate AMRAPS that included both and my shoulders are done. Halfway through hand stands they, as in my shoulders, hit a point where they were like, “eff you Brooke, I hate you” and just gave out. I would honestly love to see a video of myself in a handstand and then falling over because I am sure it is hysterical to watch my legs flailing trying to catch myself.


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Well here we are and I am at the end of my second week at school. I don’t hate it yet, which is a really good sign. I am actually enjoying all my classes and teachers as well. My fourth class is a late start, so that has yet to be decided how I feel about it, but I guess I’ll stay optimistic about it.

Thank you, by the way to the people who reached out to me about my previous post, it was greatly appreciated. Like I said, I don’t go looking for attention, if anything I want other people to feel comfortable with themselves and talking about the things that aren’t easy to talk about. I love you amazing, beautiful people.

The world has a crazy way of bringing us bad news and then following those events with lessons. My lessons from the passing of beautiful girl and depression is coming through the way of my English class. Of course, right? Well, anyways our focus is happiness. The first book we are reading from is called the Pursuit of Happiness. The cover is pretty cute, it has a basket full of puppies. Did you get that? A BASKET FULL OF PUPPIES. My teacher wasn’t impressed, but I find it funny, what’s better than a basket full of puppies, think about it. I’d take a basket full of puppies over a cup of coffee or even free tacos. That’s right, I said it, deal with it. Ugh, but really, I want a puppy, I want a golden retriever or lab. Anyways, so the pursuit of happiness. We are all on some sort of pursuit to find happiness and be happy. Me, I always say I’m going to Neverland. That’s my happy place, my thoughtful spot as Pooh Bear puts it. The first essay we read from was an excerpt from “How Happy Are You and Why?” by Sonja Lyumbomirsky. Honestly, it wasn’t my favorite thing to read and I feel like I didn’t get much from it. She focused A LOT on the scientific studies of why we are happy and how scientists try to determine why or why not we are happy. Some scientists believe we are born with the “Happiness Set-Point”. The Happiness Set-Point at birth is 50%, 10% of our happiness will be determined by life circumstances and 40% by Intentional Activity (I.E. what’s under our control). While that is definitely interesting, I’m not very certain that I can back that up 100% or agree with it. I don’t know if being a mom changes how I feel about it, but seeing my baby girl I couldn’t imagine her being born with anything less than 90% for her Happiness Set-Point. Leaving 10% for the other two. So much is out of her control and circumstances are hard to determine. In my opinion at least, but also I am no scientist, so who am I to say. Sonja also discussed how they believe genetics have a lot to do with it as well. They did studies on twins, both identical and fraternal, and no matter what was going on for both in their lives and where they were, they still felt the same about life which was pretty cool.

Celestino Fernandez gave a lecture at SRJC a couple years ago and our first assignment was to watch it and take notes on it. I loved his lecture and what he had to say about happiness and I recommend people to watch it. If, that is, you want some better understanding on happiness and discover that people have been studying happiness since the beginning of time. While he did talk a lot about statistics, he kept reinstating the fact that we have the ability to determine our happiness. We can change our current life circumstances, we can do so many things to help us become happier people. He said and studies have shown that social interaction, going outside, listening to your favorite music, being healthy, it all can lead to happiness. Fact, unhappy people watch 20% more television than the average people. Now, I know Netflix is changing the game a bit and we all have a binge day. But, what they are getting at is people who sit inside in front of a television for hours, every day, with no social interaction and don’t go outside and enjoy nature are unhappy. If you know me I completely agree that people change their intention activity. Circumstances can be hard to change, but they can be for sure to an extent of course. It took me a very long time to accept my demons and find my Neverland. So when I am around people complaining about mundane things or things that are easily fixed or attainable I get so irritated. Life is there and ours for the taking and some people just let it waste away, how awful.

I was 205 pounds people, I am the last person you want to tell that it’s hard to lose weight. I lost 45 pounds don’t tell me how hard it is, I know very well how hard it is…but I also know how fucking easy it is. I had someone who I love very much come to me and ask me for advice and that made me so happy. It’s not easy coming to terms and saying I want to make a change and asking people for help. That doesn’t make me irate, it’s when people talk about it and do absolutely nothing. Don’t be a “DNB” (do nothing bitch) as Ronda Rousey so kindly puts it. Don’t tell the single mom who was working full time that you don’t have time to work out. Don’t tell the woman who has two mouth to feed that’s it hard to buy, eat, and cook healthy food. I’ll give everyone that it is hard to cut out foods, but it’s totally do-able. And please don’t blame it on your heritage. I’m Italian, Spanish and Portuguese. My favorite foods consist of Italian and Spanish faire. I could eat tacos and pizza all day. It is so easy to make alternatives and it inspires me when my friends find healthy twists on some of my favorite foods. My sister, is a smoothie master and so incredibly good about drinking green tea. I try to get on her level, but I’m not there yet. Green Tea is taking some time for me to adjust to since I am not normally a tea drinker, but I’m getting there. My girl Jenna has been feeding me delicious and bomb-ass soups. Soup is so versatile and you can literally throw anything it and she does. Goddamn does she make soup like a goddess ha. Seriously though you can throw anything in a soup, like kale. Oh my god, kale in soup is so good and a great way to enjoy it if the taste is way too intense for you. Kate, makes sweet potato tacos and zoodles like a goddamn boss. Her spiralizing and cooking skills are out of this world. Momma Jenna & Kate, I’m hungry now! Ha-ha. Also when it comes to substituting foods, it is hard at first but you have to stick with it. When I first started taking away dairy for my diet (and diet as in what I eat on a normal basis, not diet for losing weight purposes) and my coffee drinks, it took a good 2-3 weeks before soy tasted semi normal. You can’t try something once or twice and then give up, did you give up riding a bike or tying your shoes because it didn’t click the first two times? No. Now you are, hopefully, a bike riding and shoe tying boss. Now I have switched to almond milk and find soy too sweet. Your taste buds and stomach will and do adjust, you just have to give it time. You put time into so many aspects of your life, your friends, family, and school. So I can’t wrap my mind around the thought of people not putting or taking the time to look at what they eat and see what changes they can make to be healthier all around.

The topic of being healthy came up a lot in the happiness discussion and I can back that up 100%. Not so much because I have lost weight, but because my overall health has improved. I have a healthier mind and look at my curves and love the shit out of them. I’ve grown to love my thick thighs and calves. I may not love my stomach, but I still appreciate my body because of the hard work I put into it. When you work incredibly hard at something the end results are so much better and satisfactory. You’ve pushed yourself further then you thought you could and pushed your body to do things you didn’t think it was capable of doing. Your body is a like a car, you have to take care of it or else you’ll run it straight to the ground. Even with my four year old, I have so much more energy than I did in high school. I honestly could sit here and talk about health has become such a part of my journey to being a much happier person and how it has helped fight my demons, but then I might really start to bore you. But either way, find your happiness people. It’s out there, it just isn’t going to come to you out of thin air.

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Aurora’s Four |Pumpkin Raspberry Pancakes

My baby is four, how sad and exciting at the same time. Literally, where has the time gone? She’s only been four for over two weeks and she’s grown so much in such a short time. It’s insane, I still have trouble wrapping my head around it all. My little 8lb 9oz, 21 inches baby girl is now 40 lbs and 42 inches. She has such a wonderful imagination and love for life. Give her a good meal (cheeseburger) and some hot coco on a crisp morning and she’s eternally grateful.

Aurora enjoys the simple things. Movies, friends, doll houses, Littlest Pet Shop, shopping and food. Aside from the netflix show and dollhouses, she is a pint size version of me. She’s my shopping partner and helps me pick out all of my amazing sweaters and dresses. If I need a hiking buddy or coffee date, she’s game. And you can bet, I will be the one taking her and her girlfriends to Vegas for her 21st. That’s right, Aurora is my pint sized bestie. Forget your friendship|parent standards crap. I am her parent when I need to be, but I want her to know that I can also be her confidant. Aurora will know she can trust me with her secrets and share her funny and embarrassing moments with me. We will definitely cry together and get incredibly angry with one another. If she’s my mini-me then you can guarantee she is stubborn and sassy, just like me.

We had a birthday party for her over the weekend, her first real birthday party. Her first birthday we took her Traintown with our friends and family and for her 2nd and 3rd birthday we were in Disneyland. So, it was time she had a party. Her dad and I decided to have it at the park downtown, which was the perfect setting. I brought a bunch of sand toys and they all ran around and played. Of course it was Peter Pan themed. So, I found this really cute idea to paint little treasure chests on pinterest. It was awesome, we had a huge spread of paint, glitter, and little trinkets they could glue on, they loved it. Instead of a cake I made cupcakes and arranged them in the shape of Tick-Tock Crock, which was pretty impressive. That was another pinterest find of course. It was really cute seeing her in action with all of her little friends.

Another thing that’s great about Aurora is that she’s good about trying new food. She doesn’t love everything we put in front of her, but she at least tries. I have been trying to slowly cut out dairy and gluten from my diet. My stomach has been really bad lately and I know it’s from those two things. I have a great recipe for Gluten free pancakes. I’ve been craving pumpkin pancakes so I decided to tweak the recipe and also change some of the ingredients. It had regular sugar and not a lot of flavor to it. Took a few tries and trying different things and I think these delicious, I added raspberries and it was a game changer.

Gluten Free Pumpkin Raspberry Pancakes

  • 1 ½ cups gluten free flour
  • ½ cup Raspberries (fresh or frozen)
  • 1 ¼ cups Almond Milk (Vanilla or Plain)
  • ½ cup Pumpkin Puree
  • 1 Egg
  • 2 tbls Coconut Oil (melted)
  • 2 tsp Raw Honey
  • 1 tsp Cinnamon
  • ½ tsp Vanilla Extract
  • ¼ tsp Nutmeg
  • ½ tsp Baking Soda

I honestly wrote out instructions and then stopped. Pancakes are super easy to make. You literally mix all the ingredients together and cook on a large pan. I like using coconut oil spray for the pan so that the pancakes don’t stick. They will bubble a little during cooking, but check the bottom to make sure it doesn’t burn. Flip over and cook for another couple of minutes. Enjoy with some more raspberries on top and maple syrup and you are good to go!



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Finding strength

One of the hardest things for any human being is to open up about his or her feelings. We as people shy away from being vulnerable, if you are it automatically means you’re weak. No one wants honesty anymore, some would rather live in a lie then be face to face with their problems. I think it’s the opposite when it comes to talking about your feelings. If you are able to stand up and talk about your feelings and what’s going on in your heart and mind when no one else has the courage to, that’s strength. We are taught that honesty is the best policy in school, so why is it when it’s time to be honest people choose to lie? My strength comes from a new version of myself I discovered long ago in a magical land called Hawai’i. This young woman, she chose life, she decided that her depression wasn’t going to get the best of her. That girl decided that she no longer was going to look down upon herself and feel like nothing.

It’s no secret that I am that young woman. The woman who used to lie through her teeth that “everything was okay”. Sometimes it was okay, other days weren’t. I let myself get into a pattern of just hiding it, and that’s what I’ve always done, hide it. Moving to Hawai’i was a blessing and I will always cherish my time there. I was no longer in the Sonoma bubble, I was away from home…a whole ocean away. I spent a lot of time by myself there, and that’s what I had needed. I constantly surrounded myself with friends and family, I never had time to myself. I didn’t want to either, I loved being around my friends, that’s when I felt my best. They got me through everything. First “love”, three months-worth…gotta love high school. First heartbreak, first time losing a friend and classmate(s). Being on the islands let me look at myself differently. I was introducing myself to new people for the first time, in a really long time. It was a fresh start. I had the chance to decide if who I was introducing myself as, was the person that I wanted people to remember. With a new mindset I moved back to Sonoma. Shortly I met Kenny and truly experienced my first love and first real heartbreak.

It took me two years to realize I was again battling depression and to make the decision to step away from our young marriage. It was never an easy decision to make and that’s what I don’t think most people understand. Every important decision I make is carefully thought out. The pros and cons are weighed, and ultimately and for the first time in a long time, my happiness needed to come first. I will never, ever talk badly about my relationship with Kenny. We had an amazing five years together and brought into this world my saving grace. Aurora has been the light at the end of my very dark tunnel. She brought me out of it, and is the reason I fight so hard today. I never want her to see me in any other way then as her mother, who never gave up. I want to be the strong female role model in her life. I don’t want her to have deal with depression and if she does, I want her to know it’s not something she has to run from.

Not being at the winery was incredibly tough the first three weeks. I walked around telling people I was okay with it and I was doing fine. Obviously, that was only half true. I was more than okay not being there anymore. I had been putting off going to school and a lot of it was because of my job and schedule. Now, I am on track to start school next year and I am really excited about it. I’m just having such a hard time not having the schedule I once did. I have so much free time, I almost don’t know what to do with myself. I miss a lot of my coworkers, not seeing the same people every day is tough especially when you didn’t get a chance for a proper goodbye. With all this free time I spent way too much time on the couch having a grand old’ pity party. On the days I have Aurora I kept busy and never let her see me down. But, the rest of week it was not pretty, luckily I had my two other jobs so I have been working part time. I definitely stopped going to the gym for three weeks though, horrible idea. This past week was the first time I went consistently 5-6 times. I somehow only gained two pounds, so I’m not concerned about it, because also some of my clothes are little bit looser as well. I was avoiding life and human contact pretty much. I didn’t want everyone to know what happened, though I was always excited to tell people the positive. Which, I am super excited about. I went and did my placement tests and online orientation. So, yay me.

Being more open about my depression to a few of my friends has been a huge weight lifted off my shoulder as well. Things I was once uncomfortable talking about now, I’m more than happy to share. Overcoming the depression will always be tough, but it’s something that I can’t let control my life like it has so much in the past. Facing it head on and recognizing the triggers is very important and has had me so much more aware of all the lings that I do like and love about myself. It’s okay to talk about your feelings and if there are people in your life that don’t want to hear it then they don’t need to be in your life. I have been blessed with amazing friends and family who have always supported me. They have also welcomed me with open arms when discussing my depression.

Speaking of my amazing friends, we had an equally AMAZING Halloween. Little was Princess Tiana and her dad dressed up as her frog prince, so cute. My friends, well we love our 90’s throwbacks. Last year we were a group of Teenage fighting turtles. Yes, we were the Ninja Turtles, be jealous. This year a few of us went as the Mighty Ducks. Photos for your enjoyment are below.

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Butternut Squash Soup

What I love most about fall are the clothes and delicious food. Fall is pretty much all about comfort foods, big-hearty, warm, filling meals. I love the amount of oversized, cable-knit sweaters everywhere. Boots! Oh my god, boots! Boots are everywhere too and none the with the fur. Uggs are pretty much no where in sight yet and instead us women get to appreciate each others boots. Uggs are great, but my feet over heat in them unless it’s freezing outside and close to snowing. How often during fall are you thinking “Damn girl! Where’d you get those boots?” or “I NEED those booties, and I need them now!”. Real, grown up, sexy boots. Sweaters and boots are a match made in heaven. Add some bomb pumpkin spice latte, or butternut squash soup or ravioli, hell even risotto and you’re living in my fall fantasy. And let’s be honest, yes its really cool when stores offer fall vegetables year round, but they don’t taste the same as they do in October and November…fact. Halloween and Thanksgiving are also just around the corner. It should also be noted that its little’s fourth birthday in November. Like I said, fall is the best.

My sister manages a great boutique in town called Perle. They sell a lot of Free People and other great brands such as Eternal Sunshine Creations, Sanctuary Clothing, Red Haute Clothing, Z Supply, Goddis Knits and many more. In fact, I’m practically drooling and obsessing over a sweater dress that Eternal Sunshine Creations made. Its stunning and my heart races just dreaming about it. I will own it and find multiple occasions to wear it too. I will also show it off on my Instagram every chance I get. I will admit, I am a Free People fanatic. They make these tank tops call LA Nite Tanks. It’s one of those staples that you need in any and every color, and guess what? I have six and found two more I want. They are so comfortable and only twenty dollars each, that’s a steal. And, also why I love Free People, they do all sorts of styles and have a great price arrange for all of their pieces. Try on a sweater and tell me you don’t love how it feels or looks. They mastered the oversized sweater. I have an obsession with sweaters, I know. But, how could you not? Even Target has been stepping up their sweater game. But, that’s another topic for another day because Target is just on point with everything lately.

Since fall has officially begun, I have been craving Butternut Squash soup. I always knew I wanted to create my own or throw my own spin on the classic and I finally did it. Sometimes, I use a little chicken broth or vegetable broth, other times I have used nothing but the squash and some mirepoix for a thicker soup. This time though, I went a little rogue. I love bell peppers, spicy, sweet, all of them. My taste testers for anything I cook is my family, who don’t necessarily appreciate peppers like I do. So, I went very basic and used green peppers. In my mind, the combination was beautiful. I sautéed the peppers with onions and garlic. later added coconut milk and some spices, scooped the roasted squash into the mixture and blended it all up. I topped it off with bacon and diced Serrano peppers to give me the heat that I enjoy. For my first time creating something of my own, I would say it went fairly well. I loved how it came out. If you’re interested in giving this recipe a try I have included the ingredients and instructions below. This is paleo friendly and dairy free as well.


You will need

2 md-lrg Butternut Squash
3 Green Bell Peppers
1 Small Onion
2 Cloves of Garlic
3-4 Cups Coconut Milk
2 Tablespoons Olive Oil or Coconut Oil
1 pinch Pepper Flakes
Salt & Pepper to taste

Avocado, Bacon & 1 Serrano pepper for the topping

Preheat oven to 425 degrees. Cut squash in half and spread whichever oil you chose on the cut side of the squash. (You may sprinkle any spice or salt if you like, I used Paprika and loved the flavor it gave). Place on a baking sheet with cut side facing up. Roast for 45 minutes to an hour, if it takes longer don’t stress. Depending on the cut and how big the squash is will vary the amount of time needed to roast.

Chop Bell Peppers, Onions and garlic and place in a large pot with the remaining tablespoon of oil. Cook on medium to medium to low heat until the peppers are tender and the onions are translucent. Add two cups of coconut milk and simmer for 15 minutes. Some of the liquid will reduce, that’s fine.

Pull the squash from the oven and let it cool for a few minutes. You may then start scooping the squash into your bell pepper and onion mixture. Once it is all added in, stir in another cup of coconut milk. Stir well and let that simmer again for 10 minutes. Add your salt and pepper as well. At this point you may start blending your mixture. I used my Ninja and just did a little at a time and would pour it back in the pot and continue the process until it was all smoothed out. You may need the remaining cup to help blend the squash and vegetables if the mixture is too thick. Because of the size of my two squash I definitely needed all four cups.

I baked about 6 pieces of bacon and chopped up one whole Serrano. For my own personal serving I used two pieces of bacon and a pinch or two of the chopped peppers. For my family, I used 2 pieces of bacon each and underneath that I placed two medium-sized slices of avocado.

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Cycling, breakfast & PSL’s

I tried something new. That shouldn’t necessarily be completely shocking though. I am pretty good about trying new things and being open minded, especially when it comes to working out. Last week, I was feeling good. My headaches weren’t that bad and I didn’t have a migraine, yet. I was cleaning my room and found a free class card for a spin studio we have in Sonoma called Sonoma Cycle Fit. It’s actually the first cycling studio in Sonoma, as far as I know. They also offer TRX classes and other strength training classes, it’s great and has been a huge hit in town. Sonoma may be a small town, but we have a ton of yoga studios, a pure barre studio, cycling studio, two CrossFit facilities and a handful of gyms. Also, one of the Zumba instructors teaches at school gymnasiums to give people an opportunity to experience her class outside of the gym. There’s really NO excuse to not work out if you live here. We are incredibly lucky and I had to state that before I go any further. So, there I was with my free class card, I looked up the schedule for the nights classes and there was going to be a 30/30 class. Spin first then TRX after. I prepared myself all day, making sure I had plenty of food and water in my system. During spin I was okay, it was my first time but easy to follow along with the workout. Of course, I kept my gears a little lower then everyone so I didn’t over-do it. When I do cardio that really gets my heart rate going I have to be careful, too much and I get light headed. Well, we finished spin and I felt good. We grab kettle balls and go into kettle ball swings and I’m still feeling okay. It was after we finished kettle ball swings that I started feeling light headed, then my vision was getting a little blurry. All I could think was “fuck, don’t faint. There’s a glass wall or a mirror, nowhere safe to land”. I was more concerned about being the bull in a china shop, then injuring myself. It was pretty embarrassing having to excuse myself to sit outside. I hate feeling like I can’t do something that I know I can do. I have the strength and mindset to do it, but my head can’t for whatever reason. I was pretty bummed the rest of the week. I went back to my gym and continued my workouts, but I was still so frustrated about not being to finish the class. Now, I am determined to get myself to finish a Spin class. Yesterday instead of running I jumped on a bike and did that for 20 minutes. I would increase the difficulty and decrease it like we did in class. I got a little lightheaded, but was fine to continue my workout and lift weights. So, hopefully soon I’ll be back in a cycling studio not almost fainting.

This past week I have also been really good at eating breakfast. Like, really good. Well, I’m actually good at eating breakfast, but I love it when someone else makes it for me. Like, one of my favorite restaurants in town. My go to place is EDK (Eldorado Kitchen). I know that menu better than myself. Mmm, now I want chipotle eggs benedict, damn. I always try to be good about starting my day off with a big meal. But, I’m really good at just having coffee or tea and feeling fine. I don’t make terrible food choices the rest of the day, but I definitely eat more when I do that. When I have breakfast first thing I feel so much fuller throughout the day and eat less. I love breakfast, it’s my favorite meal you can have, aside from sushi, tacos, pizza and burgers, ha-ha. Poached eggs have been a big thing for me this last week, no matter I chose to have I always made sure to have an egg as the main part of the meal or on the side. I discovered whole wheat pancakes, thanks to my dad. I enjoy and prefer them compared to regular pancakes. I’m one of those non-loving pancakes folk. Pancakes are too dense for my stomach, especially for my first meal. But, the whole wheat ones are light and much easier on my stomach. One day I was short on eggs and traded out the egg for applesauce and I always use almond milk in place of regular milk. They were so good! I highly suggest you go try it that way. If any of you have made anything paleo or vegan you’ll already be aware of this wonderful trick. The applesauce gives the pancake a nice sweetness and you really don’t need any kind of syrup on it. But, maple syrup was really good on one of them. Making time for my morning meal has really been one of the best things I have done for myself as of recent and I’m glad I’m doing it.

Oh – and I have found a Pumpkin Spice Latte that warms my heart…Dutch Brothers, who knew!? I tried it this weekend with some of my girls and it was delicious! October without Pumpkin Spice Lattes was leaving an empty place in my heart and soul. Seriously though, try Dutch Brothers PSL with soy or almond milk. I have had it blended, iced and hot and all were delicious.

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Back at it…again

When I first started this blog, I honestly had no clue as to what direction I wanted to go in. I didn’t necessarily want to create a fitness blog, nor a fashion blog and the title of lifestyle blog is too intimidating. So whenever it came time to write, I didn’t know what to write about. I have so much going on in my life. I feel that my best writing is always that of how I feel. But, do I want everyone knowing what is going on in my life? Not really and that’s hard because I’m a storyteller, once I start talking about something I can’t stop. That’s usually why I try to keep quiet, my thoughts are all over the place. Plus I always think, who wants to read all of my random crap about stuff that they may not care about? Throwing that out the window is hard. No one wants to be judged, but learning about yourself and making yourself a stronger person means doing things that make you uncomfortable. And my goal is to always be the best version of myself, a strong young woman, confident and not scared of the future. Which, let’s be honest the future is scary. The great unknown.

Recently my journey went in a different direction then I had planned it to, kind of. I always talked about going back to school and have tried to go back. But, at the last-minute I back out. A lot was fear, time, and not feeling ready to add-on more responsibilities to my ever-growing plate. Things at work were on a train that was non stop. So much was going on and I wasn’t sure how long I wanted to be there for it and at 26 did I really want to make this my life? No, I didn’t. Like any breakup, it was sudden and in a way not planned. I didn’t walk away on my terms and I will just say that much. I am heartbroken to be putting behind me three and a half years of laughs, awesome people and some tears. I did so much growing up there and met some of my best friends and will be forever thankful for that. But, my plan to go back to school in 2016 is fast becoming a reality because of it. I have no excuse now but to go back and I am. I am freaking out, I have been out of school for 8 years people. Eight years, it’s definitely like learning to ride a bike….again. Placement tests, counselors? It’s all getting real. I have three and a half months and it’ll be here. But I am excited for it. No one is ever too old to chase their dreams or should feel that they missed their chance. At least, I would like to think so. So here I am at the age of twenty-six going back to school.

This time off though that I have had the last 3 weeks has been pretty amazing. I have gotten to spend more time with Aurora and just hang out. Having a total of three jobs was a lot, but I was keeping busy and didn’t have time to think about anything other than work and when I would get sleep. In turn though, I was missing out on adventures with Aurora. She is growing so fast and is so smart, the amount of information her little 3-year-old brain retains is simply amazing. Also in that time I have had time to do some soul-searching. Where do I want my journey to take me? Where do I see myself in a couple of years? What do I want to do with my life? It’s all so exciting. I have also found that I love writing my thoughts and sharing them through this medium or even through Instagram and I definitely want to get more serious about it. I have no excuse anymore. I think coming to terms that I don’t have to write about one topic in particular will open the doors for me to write more and not worry so much. So please, stay on the look out for weekly posts. God only knows what my future holds and as my journey continues I’m sure I’ll have more stories to tell and hope that you enjoy them.